Your Assumptions About Me Were Wrong…

December 6, 2013

Dear sister,

Your assumptions about me were wrong.  As a result, you became like one of Job’s friends.  You misunderstood my suffering.  You assumed me as one who is afflicted by God.  Someone who needs to be fixed of an ailment.  Things are not as you assume, however.  

This life is without spot or blemish.  

This life is perfect and pure.  

Why have you thought otherwise?  Despite my sinless nature, there was something that even I had to learn during my time here on the earth.  I had to learn obedience.  This obedience was not the kind of obedience that you have been taught, however.  Duty, honor, responsibility, performance, etc… are mankind’s externally rooted attempts at obedience.  The days of this kind of obedience were numbered from the start.  The roots of my obedience on the earth were completely other, however.  

My obedience was internal, rooted in love.

The more I tasted this love, the more I was compelled into this indwelling love and away from my own life.  I was given a teacher to teach me how to listen and be obedient to love.  I often despised this teacher, but she became a familiar friend.  It was through her guidance that I became aquatinted with the still small voice of my Father.  

My teacher was suffering and tears.

Contrary to what you thought, suffering and tears were actually a blessing to me.  They taught me how to notice my indwelling love.  They were a sign of my approval and right standing before my Father.

My dearest sister, your assumptions about me were wrong.  Your assumptions have added to my sufferings and have only furthered my awareness of His indwelling love.  They have furthered my obedience.      

“In the days of His flesh, He offered up both prayers and supplications with loud crying and tears to the One able to save Him from death, and He was heard because of His piety.  Although He was a Son, He learned obedience from the things which He suffered”.  (Hebrews 5:8, NASB) 

“Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins!” (Isaiah 53:4, NLT)

Jamal Jivanjee

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16 responses to Your Assumptions About Me Were Wrong…

  1. The outward or cranial days of obedience are indeed numbered, in fact they are done. This obedience isn’t obedience at all, for it is based in fear, fear of punishment.

    Our Father provided and provides the true obedience, it’s from His very heart. This is to walk in a His Love. Nothing brings Him more joy than to see His children walking in His Love. Yes there is suffering involved in this walk, and yes it may seem to be punishment, but it’s not, Love is long suffering and will endure all for the sake of Love.

    Love endures all that is not Love till Love is all there is.

    • “Love endures all that is not Love untill Love is all there is”. That’s a beautiful promise brother, thanks for sharing:)

  2. Sometimes when we obey God by hearing the Spirit it will cause us much pain because we find we have been enabling someone to sin and we called this love and submission, not realizing what we have been doing. It looks like we have turned our back on them and left them, but in reality we have given them the gift of truth. We are no more agreeing with them. They may be in much pain because of this decision we have made and we are in pain watching them go through their decisions, but when we cast all our care over on our God, we can release them to Him. This is true love. By grace we stand.

  3. I like the way THOMAS TORRANCE puts it–the justification we have is not ours,its christs and we live by trust of this justified being that lives inside of us so that he can live his justified life out of us.

    • That’s good news Kenneth!

      • yea really-if god told me ok now that I saved you its your responsibility to live as a justified person I would surely screw it up because I don’t know how to do it but jesus knows how cause he was here on earth and did it

  4. There’s something about these sister letters that are very special. Each time I get something that stays with me for a long time. “After God’s heart” is the best way to describe it. Thank you so much for sharing them Jamal.

  5. Must I also suffer in order to learn obedience? Must I also feel the lashes and the nails in order to receive healing? Must I also be the prodigal in order to know the Fathers love? Must I ????? Or is what He did for me enough? I’m confused!

    • Hi Joe, welcome to the blog. Thanks for the comment. That’s a good question. Because the life of Christ is being lived out in and through us, we experience true fellowship with Christ when we experience His very own sufferings. Paul talks about this in Phil. 3:10. Here is the prayer that rises up in me:

      “Thank you Jesus for the revelation that we are not seperate. Therefore, when we face rejection, suffocation, accusation, desperation, betrayal, disappointment, disillusionment, we know that you are sharing your sufferings with us.” (Phil 3:10).

    • Joe,

      Are you asking if Jamal is saying that suffering is the only way to really know Him? Or if the delight of knowing Him isn’t valid unless coupled with excruciating suffering? Your comment has stayed with me since i read it last week and i wanted to speak to it. I think i see why you asked if what He did was “enough.” 🙂


  6. Shelby Shock-Marsh December 7, 2013 at 3:19 am

    I just adore how our beautiful Lord is continually using you to change my perception. Of Him. Of myself. Of my brethren. i agree with Pamela, there is something very very special about these sister letters. Thank you, Jamal for sharing His insight with us. Even tho we are miles from each other, your posts bring us into the same Living room.

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