Your assumptions about me were wrong. As a result, you became like one of Job’s friends. You misunderstood my suffering. You assumed me as one who is afflicted by God. Someone who needs to be fixed of an ailment. Things are not as you assume, however.
This life is without spot or blemish.
This life is perfect and pure.
Why have you thought otherwise? Despite my sinless nature, there was something that even I had to learn during my time here on the earth. I had to learn obedience. This obedience was not the kind of obedience that you have been taught, however. Duty, honor, responsibility, performance, etc… are mankind’s externally rooted attempts at obedience. The days of this kind of obedience were numbered from the start. The roots of my obedience on the earth were completely other, however.
My obedience was internal, rooted in love.
The more I tasted this love, the more I was compelled into this indwelling love and away from my own life. I was given a teacher to teach me how to listen and be obedient to love. I often despised this teacher, but she became a familiar friend. It was through her guidance that I became aquatinted with the still small voice of my Father.
My teacher was suffering and tears.
Contrary to what you thought, suffering and tears were actually a blessing to me. They taught me how to notice my indwelling love. They were a sign of my approval and right standing before my Father.
My dearest sister, your assumptions about me were wrong. Your assumptions have added to my sufferings and have only furthered my awareness of His indwelling love. They have furthered my obedience.
“In the days of His flesh, He offered up both prayers and supplications with loud crying and tears to the One able to save Him from death, and He was heard because of His piety. Although He was a Son, He learned obedience from the things which He suffered”. (Hebrews 5:8, NASB)
“Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins!” (Isaiah 53:4, NLT)